10 honest things

So Nick is playing a video game and I finished all of my homework and Caitlyn challenged me to do this so I guess I will. Although I can already tell it's going to be hard...

1. Even though I'm going into music and am supposed to LOVE playing my instrument, I actually kind of dread the two hours everyday that I am supposed to play my flute. It's not really fun anymore so I don't enjoy it. But I'm not going to change my major because I absolutely love the rest of the music program. And I'm good at it too.

2. Like my sisters, I am terrified of being a parent. I don't know what to expect at all. I mean, if I'm having a girl I would expect her to be like me, but apparently Dad has compared both of Caitlyn's daughters to me. So if she's raising kids like me, then what should I expect? And to have another life besides mine completely dependant on me for a while? It's a scary thought because I'm hardly an adult.

3. I have not had any morning sickness at all in my pregnancy and I have about four days left in my first trimester. I'm one of the lucky ones I guess. Even so, being pregnant is not as fun for me so far as it is for Kristin. Maybe because it still doesn't seem real, but I feel like I'm limited now to certain things. I just want it to be November and be done with being pregnant already. It makes me super cranky and really emotional. And irrational. Nick has told me that next time I say hey I think its time we try and get pregnant again he's probably going to say no because of how I am now. Not that we're only going to have one kid, he's just going to I guess think about it more carefully now that he knows what to expect.

4. I absolutely do not like golf. I think it is the most boring sport on the planet. Sorry Dad. Nick loves it though and so does the majority of his family. I watched the masters with them and still cannot see the appeal to it.

5. I'm afraid I'm never going to get out of working in food. It's kind of an irrational fear I know. I mean, I almost have a teaching degree. But in all honesty, when will I be able to teach in the next ten years. We're going to be having kids and Nick will (hopefully) be in dental school. Someone has to work and make money for our family. While working, I have to raise our kids while Nick is away at school. It's going to be an interesting few years coming up.

6. I'm in a class this semester that is all about teaching and working with people who have disabilities. For three hours this semester we have to go to a place that is for adults with disabilities. Even though I have an aunt with down syndrome, I am still kind of nervous around people with disabilities. I don't know how to act around them, even though we're supposed to just treat them like normal people.

7. Before Nick and I got engaged I almost ended things for another guy. I don't even know if it would have worked out with the other guy, but I was seriously having my doubts about Nick (sadly). Obviously not anymore because we are happily married. It was kind of a miserable time for me though.

8. I read entirely too much. Even while I'm in school, I read books instead of doing homework. And I read fast too. I can read about five or six books by the time Nick reads one and that's not an exaggeration sadly.

9. In high school I used to think that everything that was going on was so important and would effect (affect?) the rest of my life. I see now that I was completely wrong and those things don't really even matter at all. The only thing that has affected my life is band because that is what I'm doing with my life right now.

10. I have only ever really had three "official" boyfriends. Shocking, huh? It's true though. I used to be, as Caitlyn calls it i guess, a flake. My phase didn't last nearly as long as hers though because mine was only right after high school to the end of my first semester. Then I didn't date anyone for a year. And then I started dating Nick. In those few months of me being a "flake" I kissed about five different guys...Then I went home and realized I was an idiot.

So there's my 10 things. I'm not going to challenge anyone because the only people on here that would read this have either already been challenged or already done this.

Now I'm going to write about my recent doctor's appointment.

So I went in on Friday for what I thought was just going to be some blood work. Wrong! The nurse asked me if I'd had a pap smear yet and when I told her no she was like oh well you're getting one today then. Oh great. Wasn't ready for that. Luckily the doctors at my clinic are super nice and distract you while they are doing unpleasant things. I ended up not getting blood work done that day because Nick and I decided I should get the tests done for down syndrome and something that starts with a t and has 18 in it. Also some nuchal thing. I guess I should get more informed about what they are doing to me. Anyway, they made me come back on Saturday for that. I had to get an ultrasound done where the baby has to be in a specific position and guess what? Mine wasn't. I asked the lady doing the ultrasound if that was common and she said it only happened to every 1 in 10 people. Great. My child is already stubborn. Lovely. Anyway. It took five attempts at different kind of ultrasounds (three abdominal and two...not) to get my child in the right position. It was kind of frustrating. And uncomfortable. But in the process of all of this, while we were waiting for my baby to move, the nurse got a shot of the legs and was like, "Oh, so I know it's really early to tell so this is probably wrong and don't get your hopes up, but it kind of looks like you're having a boy. See those are his legs and that, well that could be a scrotum." But I'm not getting my hopes up because I'm only 13 and a half weeks along. But Maya you could be right. That would be dang impressive. Pretty much the rest of the appointment was bloodwork which I am proud to say did not make me pass out even though I freak myself out and almost make myself hyperventilate about stuff like that. The nurse was really nice and distracted me and Nick stood by me and held my hand while I buried my head in his arm and he stroked my hair. It was calming. And I love him. He's great. lately I've been getting irritated so easily, and a lot of the time i take it out on him, but he usually just takes it. I could not have asked for a better husband.